I hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving. I know I did, no one showed up and we just done a small immediate family feast. I cooked all morning and took a long nap after we all ate.
If you are bipolar, you obviously know how your brain decides to jump into all sorts of projects but don’t seem to finish them. Well,I have been working on my book a little and Junk Journaling has become my quick obsession. You know how this works out.
I have many and I mean many journals, all types, that I have started but have never finished. If is very frustrating to lose interest in things that a week earlier was your only though and passion.
How many projects have you started but not finished due to losing interest? How many projects are you currently working on? See, this is what bipolar does to people like us. And others wonder why we ‘look or act’ crazy. Do I ever finish a project? Yes but there has to be a secondary reward afterwards other than finishing the project itself. Shopping with a limit is normally my reward.
Yes, shopping is my evil addiction. I buy so much crap and most still in packages. This is a very dangerous addition for a lot of us. No, I don’t have the extra money to spend but it doesn’t stop me from doing it. This vicious circle is what drives me crazy.
20 years ago, my obsession was exercising. The adrenaline rush was amazing. I exercised 6-8 hours ever day and also walked about 5 miles afterwards. No, this wasn’t healthy for me. Some would say I just enjoyed it but others knew what was really driving me, the bipolar that even meds couldn’t control back then.
I want to get back to writing everyday because it is my main life long passion and obsession. When I don’t know what to write or get writer’s block, this is when I find myself skipping days of writing because of some other weird urge. Wanting something and actually doing it are completely separate things.
Happy Black Friday! No I am not doing any type of shopping whatsoever today.