Tumor vs Bipolar = Confusion

I have battled bipolar disorder all my life with many obstacles. My worst issues have been irritability, depression and spending money along with addictions for 30 years. At one point I was naive and thought I had cured a majority of it through meditation. Meditation and prayer has helped tremendously but there is no suchContinue reading “Tumor vs Bipolar = Confusion”

Journal Entry #1

Since I began taking the Vraylar a couple months ago, I have had more motivation than I have had in years. It feels great to be able to be motivated and want to get things done during the day. It’s like daytime manic and nighttime sleep. After trying so many I’m just happy to haveContinue reading “Journal Entry #1”

Addiction

I can’t believe I am going to tell you all this. I hope it helps others about what I am fixing to confess. I’m not proud of it but these days it is common, sadly enough. I am in Recovery but really need to be recovering from Recovery. What do I mean, you say. First,Continue reading “Addiction”

Chucky

I have mentioned Chucky before. I want to introduce you to ‘him’. Chucky is my pituitary adenoma or aka brain tumor. I gave it that name because it likes to wreck havoc on my life. I have learned to laugh at it because of some of the things it likes to cause me to do.Continue reading “Chucky”

Depression

Having Bipolar I have dealt with depression many times. It is loaded with worthlessness, lots of tears and irritability. The days fly by and you have no interest in anything, let alone energy and motivation to do something. For me, depression is being in darkness that consumes me and falling into a dark hole graspingContinue reading “Depression”

My Childhood Dream

When we were kids, we were asked what we wanted to be when we grew up. Most of us never became what we wanted to accomplish as kids. Did you want to be a doctor, policeman, fireman or an attorney? I didn’t. In the beginning I wanted to be a vetenarian. My dad was aContinue reading “My Childhood Dream”